September 10, 2007 at 10:40 am (Uncategorized)

yesterday i got a kitten rather abducted it from fish market… a green eyed beauty… a friend wanted a pet cat for sometime so i’d enough motivation to commit the crime… i’ve done these kind of crimes before also… nth times… but that not the reason i’m writing….

i got the kitten… a friend named her Fish…

she slept like a log after i gave her bath… towards the morning i found her sleeping outside my womb… happy and warm… almost smiling or maybe i was imagining…in any case i cant see much without my glasses… but my soul saw it smiling in sleep, then it opened its eyes to see me and went back to sleep… i dont know when it moved out of my womb and started playing around… years back i lost a child… something had happened then… there has always been a desire to have a child… maybe its just a chemical combination in the body…. strange i’m still mourning….

i want to scream and cry…. expel the cyst from my soul….

pray for me……

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Love, Drugs & Madness

September 7, 2007 at 12:34 pm (Uncategorized)

as long as my memory takes me into history i’ve seen the three together hand in hand… the trio in union… maybe they are one….
what follows is an ode to a woman who has been waiting for a man called “Anurag” meaning love in some ways; funny i feel… she has beenĀ  waiting since last couple of years becoming mad and madder in love…. he is missing from her world as if he was never born….

he is walking some part of the earth, making art but my friend does not know about his whereabouts; only a select few know…. and they have chosen not to tell her anything as they think her madness has gone beyond the accepted norms….

“J” you are a brave woman to love someone like this…. but is it an escape… has it become an escape for you?

i know of a man who was my husband… i’d loved him like mad…. now i’m not with him and he has also become mad or has chosen to become mad…

there is a method in our madness; in all of us…

i’m again in love and getting scared of becoming mad but will love happen without madness… i doubt… its the eternal drug… the most potent of all…. the one which has and will go on destroying and creating in one action….

lets live and die…. all for love… in the name of love……

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September 4, 2007 at 8:42 am (Uncategorized)

i’d met her years ago at a rehearsal in delhi… met her again in mumbai… we are friends now… gr8 friends… she is an actor… who is not getting to do what she wants to do, so these days she is contemplating to work in a BPO and earn…

what do i feel for her…

obviously sad… not b’coz she is my friend… i feel sorry for all those actors who come to mumbai thinking that they have what it takes be an actor… i’m not talking about people who are driven to the city by the enchanting paraphernalia of bollywood… i’m talking of people who take acting seriously and have devoted considerable part of their lives in learning the craft… so they come to mumbai and they realize that no one wants them b’coz there is always someone who is a favorite of the channel or the producer or the casting director… it seems that the whole city is running on favours…

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September 3, 2007 at 12:28 pm (Uncategorized)

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